June 2008, I found out what I thought would be my worst nightmare, I was newly single, and found out i was pregnant, was in denial for about 5 months into my pregnancy, I didnt wanna believe I was pregnant.. How could I be pregnant?. I thought my life was over, Little did I know this little miracle would save my life. When i finally grasped the fact that I was going to be a mom, I realized how stupid I had been in the past, Partying, having no care in the world except what im gonna do that night, what i was going to wear, what club to go to. When i saw my daughter on that ultrasound machine for the first time, My whole life changed that very moment, She became my life, My world. Even though thing were very tough for me then with everything i had going on with my personal life, All i had to do was look at her picture and I knew everything was going to be alright.
October 2008, We found out it was a girl.. Every moms dream to have a GIRL, My first thought was YAY fluffiness and lots of bows. We decided to name her Mikayla Nicole, She took on my middle name. Then came the spending, Its way too incredibly easy to buy things for babies, exp. girls!
Then Christmas 2008 came along, Got engaged to Randall, Even though we had our ups and downs exp. during my pregnancy, I did love him despite all the harsh words and problems. He in turn has become the best thing that has ever happened to me. I love him more than words can express. So Christmas passes and im getting really nervous because Mikayla was suppose to come around february. Talk about the longest month of my life!
Then came an unexpected January 25th 2009 birth to the love of my life, She was 7 pounds 1 oz. and 20 1/2 inches long, Born at 5:30 am.
She stole my heart the first time I laid eyes on her. She was so beautiful and she was mine. She had me wrapped around her fingers... She had a few breathing problems so she went straight to the NICU which was so hard for me.. I couldnt have the joy of holding her all night in the hospital. And having to leave the hospital without her was even worse.
When she had finally come home, I enjoyed every min. of it.. I enjoyed the 2 am feeding i enjoyed hearing her breathe and cry and lay on me, I loved every second of being a mommy. I lost alot of people who I thought were true friends to me but now I have come to realize that if it wasnt for mikayla, Id be where they are right now and that would be the worst thing for my life. Mikayla truely saved me from going down a road I never wanna be on again, She has changed my life so much, I love her more than life itself and i will protect her with everything i have in me.
The joys of watching her grow up.. watching her crawl, try to talk, smile and laugh were just priceless moments.. How could i love s
omeone so tiny and someone who i just met so much?
She stole everyones heart with her laugh and smile, She was the best baby i could have ever asked for, She was and still is the sunshine of my life, except now has a little attitude, but she is still way cute being a brat =-)
December 5th 2009, I married the love of my life. We had a beautiful wedding and i wouldnt have done it over, i hated wedding planning but it all came out perfect for that day, i remember being so nervous my friends had to fan me and calm me down..
I remember standing there and watching all my bridesmaids go down one by one and they kept disappearing. Then i seen my daddy and it was time for me to go greet my groom, Boy was i a nervous wreck. I was praying to God i was making the right choice in everything. Luckilly he didnt turn out to be such a bad husband.. =-) He's actually a pretty dang good one, and a great father, I couldnt have asked for a better man in my life than my husband. We had out ups and downs but in everything we love each other and we're a family and thats all that matters.
So the whole first came love then came marriage then came a baby, didnt happen with us, we reversed it and i wouldnt have had it any other way, because if it wouldnt have we would never be where we are today, and that is the happiest i have ever been with anyone in my life!
Well came time for mikaylas first birthday.. yeah i know crazy.. thats exactly how i felt. My baby turning one was so hard.. i cried i will admit, the thought of her growing up and walking and talking depressed me but it happens.. lol, She was big but not too big to still be my baby girl.
She looked so cute in her little tutu her aunt nikki made her and the shirt n bow i made her, she was ADORABLE! She had a princess themed first birthday party and she had a great time and got so much stuff she really didnt need, but deserved =-)
She is definatley still my little princess and me and her daddy are very very proud.
Now that it is comming around to her second birthday and mine and Randalls one year anniversary, I look back at the past and dont feel a thing.. Could pretty much care less about all the people that left me behind and didnt care a bit.. all im looking foward towards is my future with my wonderful husband and my baby girl and her future siblings to come.
As this year ends i hope to be an even better mom, an even better wife and love and enjoy every moment of life.. no more am i gonna sit back and let my past ruin me, or let anyonein my past think they can hurt me. I have moved on to newer and more awesome things and i could not be more thrilled and happy about that, I love my family each and every member of them, I love my husband with all my heart and of course Mikayla has my heart.
I have great friends and a great church and a great life. It couldnt have been better in a fairytale =-)
My life as i know it.. is pretty awesome
So if anyone has children, you know that potty training is the most fun stage right? its the part of YESSS! no more diapers.. You trade in diapers for carpet cleaner because at least one your child will poop or pee on the floor, Ok, So i lied probably more than one time.. Iv'e had plenty og OMG Mikayla moments, Moments where she has come down the hallway and pretty much just handed me what was in her panties. yeah.. fun stage =-)
So instead, we got a puppy. So the new addition is Mr. Reggie, and Mikayla loves him to death, now having to potty train a puppy yay! more carpet cleaner lol.
